15 January 2012 @ 11:51 am
Add another point to the score.  
Well. Had another seizure last night at about eight, thirty minutes after I took my medication for it. Oh.

It was about eight-thirty and I was just sitting in the recliner in the living room chatting with my parents. Nothing at all strenuous or too late at night. I'm glad they were so close and that I was sitting down. The usual smashing my face and mouth on my hard wooden computer desk that has sharp corners hurts like a bitch. I never get any warning for these kinds of things. On the internet one moment, face/desk and on the floor the next.

I used to get really upset about these happening when it first started in high school sophomore year, but lately I can't bring myself to get worked up over it anymore. I guess that means I feel defeated? I guess, I dunno.

All I know is that I have to wait another year from last night to be able to legally try for a driver's license. While I've never been the kid who wouldn't shut up about ___ many days left on the calendar until they could try for a driver's license (the thought of me driving has always freaked me out. "I'M GONNA KILL PEOPLE AND RUN OVER SHIT AHHHH"), it feels really weird and bad needing to be toted around everywhere by other people.

But yeah, I just... I don't know. I feel kind of uncaring and dead inside right now.

Mom said it might have been something about the movie Hanna we were watching, she said that there was trippy surreal music in the background at the veeeery end of the movie, which lasted for like three minutes and was barely audible because I almost didn't even notice the stuff. But I don't agree because my episode happened an hour after the fact, so... But she still maintains that it was the music and says, "No Vocaloid music," based on the past in which it was playing on my computer when two of..... oh, ten plus? my seizures happened.

Oooooooooookay then. Sure. Let's go with that. Whatever.

Not like I'm not going to keep up with it or still listen to it but I guess not at home so much.

Mom, stop blaming my favorite things that are not in the wrong, plz.

Her conclusion is wrong but at least she sounded somewhat apologetic and said that she knows how important Vocaloid is to me. :/ I'll take what I can get. Sure beats her calling it, Zelda, and Pokemon shit like she has a few times in the past.

Going to clean up my room and squeeze in some drawing and Skyward Sword in today since today and tomorrow are my last days of winter break. I go back to school on Tuesday. My schedule has a huge-ass break between the end of my first class at 9:15 until my second class at 12:35. I guess I'll draw some "real" drawings that are worth completing digitally while I'm waiting between classes. I really need the practice. ;;
Current Mood: blah
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phish: eight[personal profile] phish on January 15th, 2012 08:36 pm (UTC)
Ohh ):

(hugs) ;;
Julie: [Vocaloid] Rin ashamed[personal profile] pirorin on January 15th, 2012 08:41 pm (UTC)
/hug received

Thank you. ;;
destination of fate: family[personal profile] kiga on January 15th, 2012 10:18 pm (UTC)
ugh that sucks so bad, but i'm crossing my fingers for you that it won't happen again and you can finally get your license!!
Julie: [Vocaloid] Len no Bousou[personal profile] pirorin on January 15th, 2012 10:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks! That'd be nice.